25

Ok, so I know a lot of you freaked out at the thought of turning 25. And I never really understood it...we are still young and have a lot of life left in us...but in recent weeks, there have been a number of things happening to make me think. Where is my life going???? There are the things that have happened, that I wouldn't give back for all the money in world. But, I do have things that I thought would have happened by now...or at least I would be closer to having by now. For example. Do you realize that out of all of us in our "group" I am the only one who has never had a serious (like an actual serious, this could lead to something) real relationship. It's kinda sad. Oh, and I'm sick of the bullshit line...when it finally happens to you it will be the real thing or last forever and blah blah blah.....because, what do I do in the mean time? Also, I don't do anything. I like my job, but there are so many things I'd rather be doing....and quite frankly I love my family and friends here...but I am in desperate need of a change. I'm sick of the only thing for a single woman around here to do is to sit at home, or go to the bar. And in light of what happened 2 weeks ago, I realize...I have a lot left to do. For example get married, have more kids, move (anywhere would be good right now), travel...I've never been able to do much of that, do crazy life on the line adventures....except sky diving, that is one I'll pass on, and do something cool like join a Tae Kwon Do class...but, instead...I stay home...wishing I had more single friends to do stuff with, wondering if there is actually anything going on around town tonight....but I'm not going to walk down to find out, cause there won't be a thing...and yeah it would be good exercise, but driving would be easier if I could...so I stay home and go to bed at 9:30-10pm on a Friday night....sad...the only thing that I have to do to keep things from being too freaking boring is working at the store mon-sat for the most part and at the bar every other Saturday. Anyway....no need to comment, and I'm sorry I made you read all the way down before I mentioned this may be a boring self absorbed I'm so sad and my life sucks post....but you are my friends and you have to, cause that's what friends to put up with bitching. 25 in two days WHOOT!! Oh, and for like the 3rd year in a row, my dad will be out of town on my birthday...and once again no party for me...one of these times I should get a bday party...cause I didn't have one for 18, or 21 either. Remind me...for my 30th, I'm throwing myself a suprise party.