Babies, stupidity, and medication

Yeah!!!! I'm soooo excited to see Beeth and the belly! Soon to be cuddly cute baby Sawyer. I'm soo excited. I love babies, and not only that, Max will be here too. I love it. But all this baby baby baby, makes me wish I had a relationship, because I want one. I'm going nuts actually cause I get to see all these cute babies and none of them are mine. I miss having a little baby around.

And speaking of wanting a baby and relationship, I got asked out last Saturday night, and being the retard that I am, didn't give him my number. How fricking stupid can I get. Now, I will say that he was planning on stopping in to see me at Dan and Nancy's on Sunday while I was working, but he was also excited about redoing his 8 year old daughter's bedroom. So, that is forgiven. Anyway, so Monday after bowling Tammi wanted to go say hi to Cole's new woman, Vanessa, at Friend's. Jason Skala was there and he came up to me put his arm around me and the first thing I said was "no, we didn't have sex, he just gave me a ride home" because you know that's all people think is going to happen when a guy and girl leave together after a night out. Anyway, all Jason said was "it'd be a good idea" and I was like "what having sex with a guy I don't really know" and he was like "no, going out with him." and I said "well he did ask me out, but I didn't give him my number, cause I'm a dumbass" and he says "write it down, I see him every couple of days or so...so, write it down." So, I don't know if he's given it to him yet or not...but we'll wait and see. Cause he was super nice and cute...AND...taller than me...YIPPIE! But being the not pesamistic, but yet sane and seeing things as they really are. I won't get my hopes up too much. So, yeah, I'll keep you posted.

Oh, before I go to my next topic, I will not be joining my girls on Sat night after the alumni vball because Jake sent me a pair of concert tickets for my birthday. But rock on for me.

So, yeah I mentioned medication in the title. I am freaking out. I just went to pick up my first full month of my Lamictal (I'm finally at the dose they want me at) and the shit cost me $237!!!! Can you freaking believe that. And my insurance doesn't cover it at all. Plus lucky me all my medical bills are starting to come. Luckily, my mom was with, so she covered this first month of meds. But I have no clue what I'm going to do. I refuse to let my parents (even if they want to) pay for my med bills and my perscription. I owe them enough money as it is. I don't think I could possibly bring in anymore money than I already do. Right now I work obviously my full time at the Ben and then I work every other Sat night at the bar and now every third sunday...but I may do every other and that will still be every fourth for the other two girls (I don't mind cause these would be, like sat night, the weekends I don't have Mickayla), plus, if they decide to let the girl who works the friday nights I don't have Mickayla go, then I will pick those up too. And I'll be helping out every now and then on Thursdays during pool (when they play away). So yeah. I don't think I'll be seeing much of anyone except Sabrina and Beth W (cause of bowling) anymore. Just thought I'd let you all know. But if anyone has any great ideas on how I can budget all my day to day bills, rent, and now these new ones...I'm open to suggestions.

Bedazzler People SUCK!!!

Ok...so I called about the Bedazzler twice today and the first time the lady told me that she couldn't believe that the guy would tell me a week and a half, because they were still on back order for another 4 weeks or so. So I got irritated and asked to talk to her supervisor. Well, I got voice mail, so I hung up and called back...this time at least the lady wasn't a moron and was not rude to me...and she said that the bedazzlers were in, but it was the other stuff I ordered that were keeping my stuff from shipping....so she had the supervisor call me...so she is going to find out what is going on and call me Monday....thank goodness for a backup plan...but still...she did say that maybe she could get the bedazzler to me within a couple of days if I don't mind seperate shipping dates.

So it's not scary clown or anything..but this seemed better since Jake is SOOO bad about updating he gets the evil scary boy.

6 and Karate

So...I don't know whether to be happy or sad. My little baby is going to be 6!!!!! in 3 days only. I can't believe it. But it's sad...I don't know what to do for her birthday party. I would have liked to take her and some friends to bumper bowling this weekend, but not only does Mickayla have Sydney Johnson's party to go to on Sunday...but Township Bowl doesn't have bumper bowling anymore. So, I thought well maybe I can send out a couple of invitations to some kids that I know would probably go to her party even if we had to go to Reedsburg...however, now I have to figure out when to do it, because she is going to Sue and Steve's next weekend and I'm sure they have at least a little something planned. Maybe if I talk to them, we can figure something out that I can get her for half the day on one day their weekend or something. If anyone has any ideas let me know. Or like if I were to just invite girls and do a sleepover or something do any of you have ideas for that???? I NEED HELP!!!!!

Also, I just thought I would inform you all that I have joined Karate at Valarie's Self Defense in Reedsburg. I am officially a white belt and will start going to classes next week. So, just a warning to some of you for the next time we meet. DO NOT CROSS ME, for I will kick your ass, as I will be a KUNG FU MASTER!!! AHH HAA HAA HA HAAAAA!!!!! (Insert Kung Fu Master mouth moving delayed words here)

Really the reason I decided to sign up is because I needed something new. Something where I was doing something active that I'd been interested in for a long time, where just maybe I could meet some new and different people, being that currently off all the people in Hillsboro I only have about 4 friends that actually live here. Also, I felt that maybe changing things up will help keep me motivated to lose the rest of the weight and get in shape....besides, the instructor guy sounded cute on the phone...and was actually cute in person. :) (Insert Drooling here) And yes I think I can stay focused and not slip on my drool. So YEAH ME! for trying something new. I'll keep you post on how sore and tired and just down right worn out I am after the first 30 classes (hahaha).

Oh and one last thing...regarding the birthday. I AM PISSED!!! The bedazzler people told me that my purchase had been shipped and it would be here in approximately a week and a half. That was on August 30th. It is still not here. (GRRRRRR)...so thank goodness mommy had a back up plan. But I still will be calling them to bitch.

Anyway..have a good day..and love you all!!!

Nonbloggers

Ok....for all you wannabe bloggers out there.......

YOU ALL NEED TO POST!!!! What is the point of having a blog if you won't blog on your blog. Blogger and I are getting very irritated with you blogs lack of bloggings. SOOOOO, Sara, Beeth, Jeny, Nicole, Jake, and any of you other nonbloggers out there.....POST of face the scary icon consequences.

Thank You and have a nice day,

Cassie

25

Ok, so I know a lot of you freaked out at the thought of turning 25. And I never really understood it...we are still young and have a lot of life left in us...but in recent weeks, there have been a number of things happening to make me think. Where is my life going???? There are the things that have happened, that I wouldn't give back for all the money in world. But, I do have things that I thought would have happened by now...or at least I would be closer to having by now. For example. Do you realize that out of all of us in our "group" I am the only one who has never had a serious (like an actual serious, this could lead to something) real relationship. It's kinda sad. Oh, and I'm sick of the bullshit line...when it finally happens to you it will be the real thing or last forever and blah blah blah.....because, what do I do in the mean time? Also, I don't do anything. I like my job, but there are so many things I'd rather be doing....and quite frankly I love my family and friends here...but I am in desperate need of a change. I'm sick of the only thing for a single woman around here to do is to sit at home, or go to the bar. And in light of what happened 2 weeks ago, I realize...I have a lot left to do. For example get married, have more kids, move (anywhere would be good right now), travel...I've never been able to do much of that, do crazy life on the line adventures....except sky diving, that is one I'll pass on, and do something cool like join a Tae Kwon Do class...but, instead...I stay home...wishing I had more single friends to do stuff with, wondering if there is actually anything going on around town tonight....but I'm not going to walk down to find out, cause there won't be a thing...and yeah it would be good exercise, but driving would be easier if I could...so I stay home and go to bed at 9:30-10pm on a Friday night....sad...the only thing that I have to do to keep things from being too freaking boring is working at the store mon-sat for the most part and at the bar every other Saturday. Anyway....no need to comment, and I'm sorry I made you read all the way down before I mentioned this may be a boring self absorbed I'm so sad and my life sucks post....but you are my friends and you have to, cause that's what friends to put up with bitching. 25 in two days WHOOT!! Oh, and for like the 3rd year in a row, my dad will be out of town on my birthday...and once again no party for me...one of these times I should get a bday party...cause I didn't have one for 18, or 21 either. Remind me...for my 30th, I'm throwing myself a suprise party.

Boobs

Yes, I said it. Boobs, the incredible shrinking boobs no less. So as most, or all of you know...I won our little shrinking ass contest. Well, that moo la has left the building. I managed to buy myself some nice new stuff, mostly tops...but that's one of the main things I was needing. But regarding the boobs...now most of you know me for my boobs. But in recent weeks, they seem to be making themselves a little less in the spotlight. While we all know they will always be around...because like all good friends...even though you may not see them, they are there. The boobs made us take notice for real, last night as my mom and I were looking for a bra without bells and whistles (or no hooks or clasps or wire). As we were leaving, we decided the boobs looked like they needed a new friend...the old one was not as supportive as she once was. So new friends were purchased. These new friends, are not quite as big as the old...and maybe not quite as tough...but they hold her high so she does not fear falling....now that is true friendship and support.